When I lived in Missoula, I didn't have a job. I went to school and did fine, but definitely not my best. I could've worked during school but was too nervous to put myself out there to be rejected. So basically my parents sent me money every month and my boyfriend paid for everything on top of that. I am grateful, but that was a very low point for me. I felt bad about myself and I knew exactly what the first step was to get out of my slump; get a job, but I didn't.
I barely even engaged in social activities. If I wasn't with Erik, I just sat at home or in the library and let my self-loathing build.
Obviously, I was in a downward spiral. That's why I was so excited when my boyfriend and I decided to move to Bremerton, WA. He has a friend here who is letting us have the first month free in his basement to let us get on our feet. Also, my boyfriend had a job waiting here. How could we say no? I knew once we moved here, I had to start job searching immediately. I admit I got off to a slow start because Erik didn't start his job for another week, so I really wanted to tour our new environment with him like we were on vacation. But once he started his job, I started job hunting. I have very little experience and it was difficult to find something but now I have two! One of them is catering at a theatre on the weekends and the other is an on-call dishwasher and dietary aid in a nursing home. Hopefully it won't be on-call for long but the hours are plenty and it's such a relief that I'm finally pulling in some money.
The only eh part is I'm taking a year off school to gain residency. I know I have to keep up on my french somehow. I plan on attending a french club in seattle and just to keep practicing from books, rosetta stone, music, and movies.
So...I've taken my first step to getting out my slump. I've gotten two jobs!
My next step: Get over my nerves and start going to that french club!
